FATRAP
I live always stressed,
wonderin about the next night.
Where am I going to sleep?
Will I ever do anythign right?
I got a small chance at best,
brings my sorrow to a new height,
Get fucked up and bust rhymes.
Just different ways to waste my time.
Just different ways to waste my mind.
Yeah and
Iv been on this run for days,
Just getting faded in different ways.
Fightin through today,
Try get myself to a better place,
Cuz now i know what
I'm trying to chace.
I dont need a change of pace,
I've tried them all,
Once, I was even on the ball.
Now im doing drugs in a bathroom stall,
I lost it all.
Now what do I have to show?
No food to eat, and no place to go.
Had no i dea what i was doing,
But now I know.
If I wanna eat, I gotta get my hustle on,
I start up early,
Cuz I wake a t the break of dawn.
Cant sleep throught the light from the sun.
Its only 730 and my days already begun,
Its never fun.
I get tired of playing my music
for the food I eat.
Tired of begging friends
for a couch to sleep.
I feel horrible for
some the way i had to cheat.
And Iv forgotten about
the things you think you need.
I hate the way you look at me
When i ask for pocket change,
You know my face,
but please dont ask my name.
It's nothing personal, Im just ashamed.
Someone told me,
try to let some pride remain.
But old friend shake their heads
when they hear my name.
So tell me what the fuck do i have to be proud about?
He'll never get it up on his hoigh horse
That he'll never demount.
I hear his arrogant whispers
louder than a shout.
Cuz your nose is so turned up,
it looks more like a pig snout.
If you opened your mind and didnt judge,
Youd see were all equal,
no one cant be touched,
Then youd see the truth,
the way a bhudda does.
Then youd see what i say is true.
Stop thinking your better,
and acting like everyone owes you.
Cuz I dont owe no one a thing,
I just give them different songs to sing,
Cuz we all need a dream to believe,
and we All need a little room to breath,
as we try to forget
the horror weve seen.
I dont even need to explain what I mean.
Most of us had to be there,
For things no one needs to witness,
Remebering screams we might never put to rest.
Like lifes one big misery test.
Always push, try to never regress.
Challening my whole world
Is what I like Best.
Push every limit to its extent.
In your eyes, fear of the unknown
Is easy for me to sense.
Not everyone gets scared,
Some wanna hear what I have to show,
Yesterday I gave some faith
to a girl I barely know.
She said,
"your understanding is deeper than mpst guys I meet,
Lifes been so cruel, How are you still so sweet?
Your not mean and spiteful,
though your lifes been a mess"
I told her, "We need no reason for the love we posses,"
In fact im amazed,
Cuz all we should feel if hate.
And always act out
from intolerable rage.
Thats how you and I,
We aint the same.
Like when i fuck shit up,
I'll take the blame.
Got nothing to smile about,
But I'll live with honor.
If your not sure you can keep up,
please dont even Bother.
Cuz the path I choose to walk,
Nothing gets much hotter.
Think you lack the experiance
To get in on what I'm a Part of.
Approach every day with
2 parts solitude, and 1 part love.
Just know, you control the future,
You cant blame some giant 'up above'
And
I'll probably always choose the hard way
Cuz lifes no easy puzzle
And what the point of living,
If lifes not a struggle.
So always fight your fight, and never stop,
Cuz theres only one way to get to the top.
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